I can't wake up from the haze, 
the dreams i have been having
have left me here
to wonder amongst my thoughts
and get lost in the ideas
that i wake up with.
there is no possibility that they will come true
so why do i want them too?
why do i have this urge to tell you what i have been thinking?
how these dreams have been making me smile
maybe you will know in a little while
 

 

So yes, i would probably not tell anyone this on myspace unless i changed the situation. since i only knew very little people on here i feel fine telling this story here.

yesterday we were walking around wal-mart and i remembered that i needed a day planner. a simple day planner for only 4 dollars. i was talking to my husband about it but we decided that we couldn't afford it right away . i started to vent a little bit about our financial situation not really thinking that any one was listening. the last thing i said as we left the isle was "i wish we could just get a sign, just some one to walk up to us and tell us it is going to be ok. we walked on a little waze and this lady walked up to us .

"excuse me. please don't think i am weird or anything. But this is from god, not me." and then she handed me a 10 dollar bill. i was shocked, usually i would try to say no but i just wanted to cry. i said thank you and she walked away. i turned to my husband and he looked at me and just looked down in shock... its good to know that he is listening, even though we don't go to church that often. 

 So i read a friends blog about her list of 101 things she was going to do in 1001 days.I thought it sounded like a great idea. I have always had several dreams and goals but never anything written out like this.So here goes nothing

Start date Jan. 16th 2008
End date Oct. 13th 2010

Self estem
1. Loose 40 pounds
2. get my teeth fixed
3. get rid of acne
4. find a hair color i like and stick with it
5. find a hair style i like and stick with it
6. try on clothes and not find every little flaw
7. stop talking myself out of outfits

Relationships
my husband
8. accept that he will always like video games and cars
9.try to help him move forowrd out of his funk
10.communicate more
11.tell him i love him every night
12.give him a kiss every night

My daughter
13. stop arguing with her
14. become friends
15. encourage her to do things she likes
16. be there for her
17. try to get her involved in activites
18. make great memories with her
19. take a mini photo shoot with her every year
20. make a daughter mommy day and celebrate it

My son
21. get him potty trained
22.teach him how to walk (achieved)
23. tell him about his nana
24. become friends
25.encourage him to do things he likes
26. be paitent when the terrible 2s show up
27.be there for him
28.make great memories with him
29.make a son , mommy day and celebrate it

family
30. keep in touch with my lil sister
31. get closer to my father
32. be more accepting of my mother
33. help out family an chance i get
34. pay back family members
35. write letters, send pictures often

friends
36. make new friends
37. keep in touch with old friends
38. make it a point to get out with friends more often
39. return a favor for a friend

Financial
Since i am temporarily out of this compay, there is a work section further down. (updated june 22nd)
40. make my marketing job work for me
41.make 3 owners
42. make 10 customer points
43.do it again
44. go to a fortune event
45. get a lexus
46. make enough money to get out of debt
47. then pay off debt lol
48. make enough money to buy or build my dream house
49. start buying a house
50. get debt collectors to stop calling!

Things i want to buy
51. a suv (achieved)
52. a pet (achieved)
53. a cell phone (achieved)
54. a freezer chest
55. a laptop
56. name brand jeans

things i want to try
57. bungee jumping

things i want to do
58.go to the winchester mansion
59. go back to seattle
60.go visit family and friends in california (may 08)
61.go camping
62.go to a concert
63. go see a musical
64.go to the east coast

My moms house
65. get rid of all the junk in the garage
66. remodel the laundry room
67. relandscape and clean up the front and back yard
68.get roof fixed
69. carpet and lament floors
70. SELL THE HOUSE

Blogs/ journals
71. try to write atleast one myspace blog a month
72.write more personal journal here where hardly anyone knows me
73. find all my old poetry and post some on here

Scrapbooking, photography, photo editing
74. get less then 6 months behind on scrapbooking
75. get organized
76. keep up on supplies
77.go on road trips just to take pictures
78. enter a photo edited picture in the Lane County fair

Health
79.stop smoking
80. walk more
81. actually make time to work out
82. eat a little bit healthier
83. go to the doctors when i just think i need to
84. go to the dentist.

Work
85. get my csr promotion
86. finish a month with 90% or better esqi
87. finish a month with 26% or better capture
88. get more involved in work activites
89. get a bank account
90. get my promotion after csr
91. look into going back to college

movies i need to see
92. across the universe
93. mama mia
94. die hard movies..all of them
95 the rest of the harry potter movies
96. i'm not there

dvds i need to buy
97. the wizard of oz
98. ps i love you
99. serendipity
100. the rest of the dawsons creek series
101.finding nemo



on another note...........reflecting back now there is sooo much i want to add to this list...maybe i should achieve the things i have on here before i go through all the other "i wants" in life. but that makes me pensive. if you have more then 101 goals that you want to achieve then is that a bad thing or does that mean that you are constanly changing and adjusting to the world and your own situation and needs that some of these things just don't seem enough any more...???